I spend too much time on youtube.

The cycle of my life.

I seem to be in a never ending cycle of work until late, go home and to bed, get up go to work, work until late and then back to bed again. Even weekends seem to be sucked away into this place where I will never get them back. It feels frustrating. My life is twittering away before my eyes and for what really? If the market all of a sudden fell out of the bottom of the tv/film/commercial market I would be the most unqualified person in the world to do anything else.
I could dj and make rubbish sounding music I guess.
I just wonder though. What would I really do if not this?
Write this shitty blog?
I got depressed as I wrote this, and then I just spoke to Brett on gmail chat whatsamacallit and now I'm super happy.
So have this!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When humanity doesn't let you down.

So you know all that stuff I wrote in the previous post. Well. I stand a little corrected. They came along and said it was awesome. Even the marketing guy. They did it all in under five minutes as well. I feel good about it. But then again it was version 12. That is a lot........I guess my sted-fast, I'm not gonna change it too much from version to version and pretend like I did attitude seems to have paid off. I must have learnt something from flame and commercial clients then. So I guess humanity could have let me down then, I just tricked myself into believing it didn't.
In other good times in humanity news, three of my friends are becoming quite the Techno producers on a world wide scale.
Simon Beeston, Simon Flower and Andi Numan.
It gives me plenty of warm feelings inside to know that people I know that have worked hard are getting recognition they deserve, and also its nice knowing people that are contributing to something that I have felt so passionately about for a long time now.
Simon Beeston I used to have a radio show with back in NZ, which was really, really fun and my brain is littered with nothing but fond memories of, is reaching new heights of awesome with every track he produces. It seems like he could get on any bike and learn to ride it in a matter of minutes. He has had plenty of focus over the last three years and risked a lot by moving to Berlin to put all his effort into making music, and I am really glad it has paid off for him.
Andi Numan was someone I met through the Auckland club scene, a friend of a friend, and a genuinely nice fella. He used to come up to said radio show and dance around like a mad man in the studio to the music myself and Simon were playing. If you have ever done a radio show (especially a techno one) it can be hard to keep your energy levels up as sometimes you really have no idea how many people are listening and being techno in NZ (which is a very small scene that no one is interested in!) our show used to be really late at night. None of that seems to matter when you have an Andi dancing in front of you.
Simon Flower was a guy I was a fan of anyway before I moved up to Auckland, and as it turned out later when I met him properly is a great guy. I was lucky enough to play at a couple of parties with him where he was playing live and see that he is an ultra talented dude that was just a diamond waiting to be discovered on the world stage. He has given me plenty of demos over the years and its safe to say, that every single track on all of them is something I would buy if I didn't know the guy and I also still regularly listen to them today. Surprisingly I was listening to one of the first cds he gave me when I moved up to Auckland the other day and it had 'The Whisper had it' on it, which got released on Pokerflat a few years later.
It pleases me greatly seeing there releases in record stores and I have bought all of the records all three of them have released so far. I can't see that stopping.
Hats off fellas!

Waiting for clients.

I am doing this right now. I have been working on these shots for a film for a while. I am attached to how they look now. I like them. I don't want to change them but my palms are sweating and I feel nervous because I know someone among the gaggle of people that have to come up here with the director because said director can't make decisions on their own will suggest something stupid. Something irrelevant. Something just so they can use their stupid dumb arse voice just because they like the sound of it. This person probably won't be a creative person. Someone in marketing no doubt. But the director, who is a floundering mess, and hasn't made a film in a long time, will latch onto it. Then this one stupid idea, uttered by a person who has about as much right as a deaf and blind monkey to make comment on a film, will have to be executed through my hands, and then printed to film forever. Sigh.